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Heidenheimer


 Fear!
 

"You know we'll keep you posted if something happens"....

I can't believe this is another fear I'm faced with....

My favorite son who lives in New York City rides the subway every day to and from Manhatten from Greenpoint, Brooklyn...

This handsome blue eyed, black haired boy who loves to write and is living his dream said to his Mom, Me, "I cannot live in fear... We must go on with our lives... And Mom you must too." Sure I thought, you have never had kids either...

I can't beleive I am faced with this type of fear, and he did'nt enlist in the armed services, or go to a war torn country.... He is here in America....We are suppose to be safe... Our children are suppose to be safe...

One thing I have learned since I had children is that FEAR is always there. This is just another kind of fear.....

I was fearful when they were babies, running high fever. It was always in the wee hours of the night when my kids got their sickest.......And fearful when they started to school.... Was always afraid someone would try to get them. Each year brought something new to be fearful of. My Son worked at a local video store while in high school, and I was always fearful he would be robbed.......his driving...... and Drugs.......... Then there was going off to college. He could'nt wait to get to Austin.... Big fear there.......And the girls, then the women. Fear! Fear! Fear!

And now this.....Terrorist!!!!

Oh Ye of Little Faith......

I have fears about my daughter too, and now my grandson, but not like this fear since my son moved to NYC......

I pray I can get a grip....Have more Faith....Turn my fears over to God.....Chill out.....

But this fear is'nt going anywhere....We must learn to live with this fear, and my grandchild will never NOT know it...........

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 To Rest
 


Rest is not idleness, and to lie

sometimes on the grass under trees

on a summer's day, listening to the

murmur of the water, or watching

the clouds float across the sky, is

by no means a waste of time.....

Sir J. Lubbock
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 Texas Hot
 



You know it is HOT in Texas when your SEAT BELT makes a pretty good

BRANDING IRON............
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 Hot
 

HOW HOT IS IT?

IT IS SOOO HOT THE PINES ARE WHISTLING FOR DOGS!
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 Our Breath of Fresh Air
 

Both of my parents had been married before they married each other... My Mom for eleven years, and my Dad for nine....They never had children, (altho I always thot I had step siblings somewhere) but they never showed up....My Dad was married again for a short time between the first wife and my Mom.....

My Dad had given his second wife a beautiful family heirloom wedding ring with a blue diamond in it. Very ornate setting, and somehow I ended up with the ring....

My Dad had given it to his second wife just a few months before Pearl Harbor... After PEARL HARBOR, he enlisted, she left him, gave his ring back, and a short while later they got a divorce... He later met my mother,(he was stationed at Ft. Hood, Texas,) my granddad introduced them, and they eventually married and I was born when he was somewhere in France.....

For over forty-five years I kept this ornate ring in my various jewelry boxes. Would look at it from time to time, and wonder if PEARL HARBOR had anything to do with my Dad and his second wifes divorce......War is so hard on people.....

Four years this winter, my Son informed me he had met a beautiful girl, whom he had brought home for us to met us several times, and he wanted to marry her. He had met her while she was a student at the University of Texas. They were taking a train from Austin to Longview and he was going to propose to her on Christmas Eve on the train....She had said she liked antique looking rings, and wanted a ruby in it, and he had been every place in Austin trying to find the perfect ring...Had found several, and wished I could see them.

I told him about the mounting I had that was a family heirloom and would he like to see it. Yes, he exclaimed, and I mailed it next day air. He loved it, had it appraised, bought a ruby for it, and he presented it to my now daughter in law on their train ride Christmas Eve 2002 coming to our place.....

They married in Tokyo, Japan the following Spring. Her name is Nahoko Yamamoto Harvey, and she is our Breath of Fresh Air, as my daughter says.....

I don't know what my Dad would say about Naho (as we call her) and his family heirloom ring. I pray he would see her, as the rest of the family does....Although he could be quite the bigot if I remember correctly.... She is beautiful inside and out, and sweet, and good to my son, and I love her very much.....He dated some beautiful girls, but this one was just made for him......And yes Daddy, she is Japanese, and her maiden name is Yamamoto, but she had nothing to do with PEARL HARBOR.......Her family sends us gifts every New Year, and we get beautiful letters and cards from them. I hope to met them someday....

How old does a child have to be to quit worrying about what a parent thinks? My Dad has been gone for 41 years.....He would be 97 year old.........And I still need his approval....
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